Dumb and Dumber

Nabobobo na daw ako.. nakalimutan ko na kung kanino ko narinig yan pero sabi nun kung sinuman yun, wala na daw akong sense.. di ko alam kung ano dapat ko maramdaman dito. kung passive lang ba o kung dapat ba akong magalit. dagdag pa nun, panay ka-cornyhan lang daw alam ko.. lahat ng bagay kulay pink, lahat makulay, lahat masaya... wala daw kwenta yun.. mas matalino daw kasi pakinggan ang gloomy mood, yun bang may hint of sarcasm sa view sa buhay. di daw kasi ako marunong ng ganon eh. panay cliche daw mga sinasabi ko. di naman daw ako ganon dati..

well para sa kanya: sorry ha!! ngayon lang kasi ako sumaya ng ganito eh! pakshet kung kelan naman sumaya yung tao eh noh.. di nga ako kasing talino nyo.. di naman ako malungkot.. i have all the time in the world to daydream, to imagine, to see things for more than what they're worth, to enjoy life and all! di daw ako competitive.. oh well relative naman yan diba? so what kung di nako career-oriented? does that mean i lost my bidding to be competitive? iba na kasi pananaw ko sa buhay e! i raised the stakes and now i feel na i need to compete myself.. yun muna. hinay-hinay lang.. besides, mas masaya ang simple at tahimik na buhay.. and right now i think walang mangyayari sakin kung puro outside myself iniisip ko kung sarili ko di ko maayos-ayos.. iba-iba naman ang mga pinagkukunan natin ng self-fulfillment eh! i mean, respect na lang yan sa kung ano gusto gawin ng tao. wag na sana husgahan pa. bad yan eh! pero im not saying that it's bad to excel academically or career-wise.. basta kanya-kanyang measure yan..

ay basta ewan.. bahala na kayo kung ano gusto nyo isipin.. basta ako masaya.. yun lang yun.. akin na lang ang maging bobo na satisfied and driven to achieving greater heights, kesa sa matalino at competitive na pressured to please other people.. more than pleasing other people ang goal ko ngayon: it's having the time of my life and be pleasing in the eyes of GOD.. i don't care kung ano sabihin ng iba, basta masaya ako at natutuwa si Lord sakin..

teka lang.. bat ba sa salamin ako nakikipag-usap?? ^__~ (you get the picture!)

p.s. btw, di kami mananalo sa tagisan kung bobo ako noh! pero im not saying matalino ako. nyahahaha! good luck pala sa amin sa interdorm.. sana pagpalain.. pa pray naman jan oh.. if ever basahin nyo toh..

Dream of Neverland

hahay... what a crappy day.. i feel like im decaying both physically and mentally.. i've been alive for less than 2 decades but it seems like im decaying faster than my professor in marketing, which by the way is 65+ years old... ok im not really the type pf person who talks about other people but ill make an exception this time...

of the four classes im taking this sem, my marketing class is a clear standout even if it's scheduled 4 times a week (normal classes are only done twice a week).. i look forward to it everyday despite the fact that it takes up 6 units of my total subject load and despite the really ordinary topic of "making profitable relationships with customers," which according to a book is one of the business' lifeblood.. but that's not my main point here.. the thing is, we really have a good teacher... (just the thought of he handles the class is already cheering me up ^^ ) ...

sir is nothing out of the ordinary.. except that he tells the most hillarious jokes.. corny most of the time but funny nonetheless... he's also really vain, which makes him more funny.. and he tends to make fun of other people and err.. has too much confidence in his singing voice. what makes him standout i guess is his humurous nature.. i mean he's funny without trying to.. i guess that's because he's got a lot of spirit in him that just overflows to the point that it becomes sooo contagious you can't help but smile and sometimes laugh out loud without worrying bout the world around you.. sir is such a kid.. sometimes you'd find him weird beacuse of it, but most of the time you'd like him because he is like that.. (note: most professors in UP claim that they're grownups and no nonsense people who takes care only of matters of consequence and who wouldn't take time to smell the roses) sir's not like that.. he apprecaites the most ordinary of things and makes the most mundane of topics (even economics) really interesting.. and oh, he also denies he's an old man.. haha!!!

ok so why am i saying all this?? i envy sir.. hehe.. he's delaying his inevitable decay while im speeding up mine.. i worry too much and i guess i left the kid in me somewhere else... i take things too seriously and kinda forgot to explore the wonders of this world, to appreciate the little things in life.. i don't take time anymore to smell the air and look at the sky.. geezzzzzzzzzzzz...

im not making sense.. but the thing is, i wish i could be Peter Pan.. and here's the thing behind all things: i guess in some ways sir is like Peter Pan trapped in the body of an old man with a really big belly.. it may seem ridiculous but i tell you, when you see him you'd say im right.. ^^

p.s: BA 304 MTThF 2:30-4:oopm.. see yah!! ^^ open for sit-ins..

Lola's visit..

this is during lola rebing, eva and lolo boy's visit here... take in the New World Rennaissance Hotel.. the place rocks and almost everyone important was there.. and great food!

saddest birthday

Ry didnt even bother to call.. that's supposed to be ok because he's working real hard.. pero.. i dont know why i feel bad.. only a few texted.. basta im sad... sige..

Soliloquy

Ok so I havent really posted something quite sensible in quite sometime but im not blaming myself because nothing has happened this past week that's worth blogging.. and uhmm.. well there were certain "events" but id rather not talk bout them here...

So many changes lately.. My pile of work has doubled in less than two weeks and i haven't done anything bout it. but i swear i would.. i really will... and then there are exams. it's not a big deal actually but then as of this time, those exams will be my life-changing events.. make or break as what maam kraft told me.. truth is, im more scared than challenged as of this point.. just yesterday for example, i studied really hard for that darn test only to forget almost everything because i sooo freaked out.. and after class, all i wanted to do was curl up in my bed and sleep and never wake up.. oooppss!! that sounds death.. hehe.. but who cares, that was what i wanted..

but you know what, i dont think im dumb.. just plain lazy although i dont think that either.. (that was what vanessa kinda implied.. it did not offend me in any way because i think she might have a point) but i do think im disinterested. my marketing class for example.. i look forward to it everyday, knowing that after class my cup will be filled.. hehe.. i wish teachers in econ are more like that.. someone once told me not to worry.. once i see the theories at work daw, id be amazed but i've been there three years and still no theories working.. well maybe i've not seen them, but considering me?? id see anything worth seeing.. so what's wrong?? i dont know either.. maybe.. just maybe.. this thing is not for me.. so why's i fight for it during the enrollment?? i dont know either.. i won the battle... but entered another war, this time with myself... class has become a struggle and winning might have become so elusive im thinking of quitting the war.. but the question now is, is or was it worth it?? i wish i knew..

And then the world turned Pink!

precisely the reason why my whole world turned pink.. we went to yellowcab that night..