If Life is a Game These Are the Rules

I get irritated so easily whenever Ry mentions her. Last night was my schedule to call Ry. We only had 6 minutes to say our sweet nothings and out of the blue he mentions her... According to Ry, she was hopeful. Things are going great with her and that somebody. For some strange reason, I got soo angry and threw Ryan one of my infamous tantrums. Good thing it didnt turn out to be one of those ugly fights that always results from our discussion of the lives of people we seldom meet because i get so angry at them... Later that evening, I got into thinking.. why am i soo angry when Ry talks about her status?? and then i remember the book i read in High School.. the "If Life is a Game these are the Rules" book.. According to the book, you only hate someone when you see something in them that you either like or dislike about yourself... and then it hit me! i see myself in her.. it's crazy but it's true... no matter how much i try to deny it even to myself. well, i used to be like her... carefree, silly, "the pursuing side", foolish.. whatever.... she was the me who only cared for having to experience things and not really of the consequences.. on one hand, it feels great to be like that.. on the other, it really takes a long time to get over the hurt... i just hope she'll find her "Ryan" the way i had after being her.. hehe... oh this is silly..