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On Vacation

i finally got back to our province!! yey!! and because my brothers destroyed the lone PC we have at home, i wont be blogging for a very long time.. sad noh?? but i dont have any choice eh.. anyway, i will be back as soon as classes start... hehe.. take care everyone!!

nakakaasar lang..

kanina i wrote an entry dito sa blog ko about language and nationalism.. and i thought that was really good na.. and i think may relevance yung sinabi ko dun.. but oh no! ang server ng LAN namin sa dorm biglang nag-down at the moment na na-click ko yung publish.. at di ko na ma-back.. pakshet talga!! kurakot kasi houseparent namin dito kaya we are not getting our money's worth!! pakshet talaga!! i soooo hate her!! because of her super delayed na report ko!! lang ya!!!

Cosplay Pics

eto na po yung mga pics nung cosplay.. sorry konti lang kasi wala akong cam nun.. the images are courtesy of kawaii bob-chan and rugarai who took them.. wakeke.. malabo din kasi uhmm siksikan tapos i did not have time to edit them and all.. anyway, just click on the thumbnails for a better view.. thankies!

My Diary

natutuwa lang talaga ako sa diary ko kaya napagtripan kong ipost.. diba cute naman?? yan yung small window na naka-open.. hehe.. wala lang.. galing nga pala yan sa Penta Diary.. sobrang dali talaga gamitin yan.. tapos dali pang magbrowse through.. hehe.. sana may mahanap pa akong cute stuff.. natutuwa ako sa japanese products.. soo kawaii!!

pls pakibasa po.. sorry if i caused soo much trouble

akala ko talaga mawawala na si ryan sa buhay ko kahapon. sobrang tagal naming nag-away.. eto lang yata away namin na tumagal ng 3 araw na wala talagang tigil.. sa gabi away, sa umaga magbabati up to the point na it became a viscious cycle.. durog na durog na puso ko and i've hurt him soo much already pero wala talagang mag-giveway...

una sa lahat, may basis kung bakit ako nagalit. at alam nya rin yun at naiintindihan nya naman. pero hindi ako nakikinig sa mga paliwanag nya kaya sobrang lumala tuloy ng lumala.. madami pang taong nadamay.. feeling ko tuloy buhay naming dalawa naging open book na for everyone to browse to and im really as in really sorry kung nakaistorbo pa ako ng mentality ng ibang tao...

secondly, hindi ata pa rin magbabago pagtingin ko sa isang taong involved.. although prepared talaga akong kalimutan.. she stepped on what's supposed to my place at sobrang naiilang nako sa pressence nya.. alam ko hindi dapat pero babae din ako.. and i still trust my instincts.. im sorry kung nasaktan kita.. sinaktan mo rin ako.. kung alam mo lang.. nananahimik kasi kami eh.. why cant u get ur hands off the two of us? at si ry yung naiipit..

ako din may kasalanan.. inaamin ko masyado kong ginawang big deal.. pero kasi nasasaktan nako.. and keeping it will not do us any good. prangka lang ako. kahit kelan hindi ako magprepretend na ok ang lahat kung alam ko naman sa loob loob ko na hindi.. mahirap magkunwari.. mahirap magtago ng nararamdaman..

pero more than ever tapos na toh.. im putting a period to this.. humihingi ako ng tawad sa mga taong nasaktan at naapektuhan.. hindi ko sinasadya.. at sisiguruhin kong hinda na ito mauulit kahit kailan..

lubos ang pasasalamat ko sa mga taong ito: una kay marc, kauna-unahang taong dumamay sakin.. next si ohri, for the concern and for the advice, ang tita mm15 ko na walang-sawang nakikinig sakin at dinadamayan ako... shempre si archangel, lagi kong kakampi sa gulo, saya at lahat na! si lara, for a while i forgot i had a problem.. se lagato for volunteering to kick butts for me.. si ria who always believes in me. and bossing ko at ate kk for getting me into thinking this over..

at lalong-lalo na sa dad ko.. pa, im sooo sorry ur the one who gets hurt pag kami ni ry nag-aaway.. i know how much you love the two of us and im really grateful.. i know ry is din.. and to my mom: thanks for the space.. really..

special plug din to myra my roomate for trying to make sense of it and for the peanut butter.. at shempre thanks din sa College of Law library for giving me the air to breathe.. hahay...

ayoko na maulit toh..

kikayness and other issues

i have been "criticized" sooo many times online and offline (mostly offline..) for putting up such a "kikay" and "pa-cute" blog.. ewan ko pero stereotype na siguro to some na bright and loud colors are empty and dumb and that dark and gloomy are intellectual.. those who think it's pretty, well thank you very much i am deeply touched and to those who think its empty and and just a bunch of nonsense blabber, this one's for you...

let me start by saying that in the past three years that i've been away from home, siguro it's natural for me to "evolve" and to get to like things that i even prefer not to look at before.. the people who knew me in HS would say and are already saying that i have "changed"... some even told me that i don't speak our language anymore and that i have forgotten where i came from and what i was before... i try not to answer back and leave them to their thoughts but one does have her saturation point and mine has come.. i admit i have gone through a lot of modifications but i have not changed.. i am still the same person who is very fluent in speaking our dialect and who is in fact studying language just so i'd know how to approach the possible extinction of the Surigaonon language because i do recognize how important it is in our growth as a city and with that, as a nation.. i applaud our city Mayor for using our native dialect Surigaonon in delivering his State of the City Address and i recognize his and my father's effort in trying to bring business in the city.. anyway, even if i speak japanese to some of you at times that doesnt mean i have become alien to my own culture.. i am trying to learn the language so please please pardon me.. and oh, about the going back to my roots thing think again! patricia evangelista once said that it's not really a matter of where you are, it is all about choosing to go back.. like the hobbits, i have a destiny to fulfill and i do promise to go back once i have fulfilled that... hindi po ako nagpapakabayani.. this is a personal choice that i have made a long long time ago even before i got into UP, that no matter where life would take me, i will go back to Surigao..

with that said here the reasons why i think i did evolve.. one is that i suddenly find "colorful things" interesting.. but mind you, not all pinky-colorful girls are dumb.. they are just women who see life through a prism and who recognize that life is in fact a rainbow.. that doesnt mean "we" mask all the negative and shut it out.. in fact, we recognize it, seeing that a rainbow will never exist without rain.. i have nothing against being "goth or dark or gloomy.. in fact, i am also a fan of all those things.. hello? you should listen to my music and hear or read my stuff "before" and you'll see a balance between the two contrasting things... second, i have been denied (hehe) or rather i excluded myself from all the wonders of being a girl, fashion, design, womanly trippings, all of those things.. siguro naman it's time that i have a taste of those and dream of being a Paris Hilton someday... third, aint pink lovely? look at how dainty and how loving it is... diba diba???

just because i love two things doesnt mean i dont have a stand.. in fact i do.. i stand on neutral grounds and i have accepted long ago that our world is not a great big melting pot but a salad bowl mized and blended to perfection. trying to force homogeneity is the root of terrorism and we all dont want that..

and lastly, just because i evolved doesn mean i totally changed.. i just choose to express myself this way.. anyway, if you still aren't convinced enough then i am not gonna waste my time trying to explain myself.. but i appreciate that you took time to visit and see how i've been.. ako pa rin po si jais at gaya ng sabi ni kuya jam kasing kikay ko ang blog ko.. maraming salamat po sa appreciation.. because of that, i finally gathered the courage to speak up about this.. hehe..

LOSER ME

i made soo many mistakes today.. wont be blogging for long.. need to rejuvinate.. masakit.. sobrang masakit.. di ko na ata kilala sarili ko eh.. before i go crazy i have to run away muna.. im soo tired... and hurt.. take care everyone!

Animax Con 2005

went to the animax con kanina.. really had a great time.. konti nga lang pics.. di pa send ni bob yung iba eh.. well eto po yung pics nung con.. i didnt get the chance to take pics of the cosplay.. pero i know bob has 'em.. hope she'll send it to me aasap.. ganda ng costume nung Chii.. chii in wedding dress!! well eto na po muna yung pics...

Sweet Stuff

these are the things i dream of buying someday.. hehe.. look at that gorgeous pastel bangle and that cute pouch... the skirt also rocks.. gosh!!! love it.. btw, Paris Hilton is such a doll.. and my roomate agrees.. we both love seeing her model stuff.. hehe.. thanks to Glamour Junkie for the pics!! 

The Sites and Sounds of the Banana Republic

it was refreshing to hang out with my Dad again.. the reason why i haven't been posting is that i went to see him last weekend.. he came here for business and stayed a bit longer than required to bond with me...

we did a lot of talking and eating and talking and more talking.. papa is up to a lot of things these days.. he's been working really hard not only for us but for our city as well.. right now he's working on a project with a certain Captain Dorano that aims to promote the Gaboc Channel (a narrow channel located in the Philippine Deep-the world's second deepest trench next to Marianas) as a site for adventure/extreme water sports and reality TV shows.. the channel doesn't just offer incredible currents and waves but a breathtaking view of the Pacific Ocean and a an incredible mountain trail as well.. i will be posting pictures of the site and the map of it when i have it scanned na..

well i do hope papa and Capt Doarano will succeed in getting investors to develop the site...

and oh, i miss Surigao by the way.. papa told me that my brother bobet can now drive and that my other brother earvin has a good chance of making it to my high school.. i have no doubt.. he'll do great.. and for some reason i miss my HS classmates as well.. it's different when your haning out with the people who speak the smae language that you do. we may have different interests but our mode of expression is the same.. and it's different that way...

and by the way, i bought a book recently.. it's called Ang Alamat ng Gubat by Bob Ong.. and boy did out tummy's hurt! ^__^ this guy really knows how to fuse humor and political issues in a country where everyone claims they're king and where people kill other people just because they're different.. well, read and you might just find yourself laughing and learning..

so that's it.. i have to study for my jap exam tomorrow.. ja ne!!